Lets Talk|Antidepressants

Mental health is something I have always openly discussed on my blog and a few months ago I shared my experience with the contraceptive pill – linked here. So today I will be doing the same but with antidepressants!

I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety when I was 14 but because I was under 18 I was refused any medication (which was super shitty). Antidepressants are not licensed to treat depression for anyone under the age of 16 and are not clinically tested on anyone under 18, so they are very cautious when prescribing you.


So from the age of 14-16 I was referred to CAMHS for CBT, which is a mental health service in the UK for under 18’s. I had CBT focusing on self harm and depression. I am beyond grateful for the work the team done for me but this wasn’t a service that helped me. Next I attended group therapy for anxiety and I cannot preach enough about how amazing it is. Finally I went to Off the Record which is an independent company for people from the age of 11-25, it is completely free and the staff there are so so incredible. I had counselling here focusing on sexual abuse and I am so grateful for how much they helped me. So if you are in England and didn’t get on with CAMHS, try OTR.

As soon as my 18th birthday came around (2016) I was back at the doctors and finally got prescribed citalopram, which is an antidepressant (SSRI) that works by restoring the balance of serotonin in the brain.


The first month of being on citalopram is definitely the worst. There are a lot of articles about suicidal and self harm tendencies during the first month of medication. I will link one here. It is so horrendous but I promise once the first month is over it gets better. Whilst being on this I am much more tired than normal and I have experienced some very crazy and vivid dreams and I have spoken to a friend who is also on Citalopram and she experiences weird dreams and sleeping patterns too. I have noticed if I skip a few days of meds I will become extremely dizzy too.

Overall, I do think Citalopram has helped me significantly but note that all of these opinions are my own and in no way am I very educated, this is all words from experience. I would love to know your opinions below.

If you made it this far then I applaud you haha!




26 thoughts on “Lets Talk|Antidepressants

  1. Hannah says:

    I was prescribed citalopram too but I didn’t found it help and it made me feel quite dizzy and faint so I switched to Mirtazapine which although it makes me tired at times, I have found it so much more beneficial in terms of mood. I know for sure I don’t want to be on medication long-term though so hoping to come off once I graduate and the stress of university is over. xx


  2. Sarah says:

    I think I’ve been on them all at some point or another, but I have been taking them since I was in high school, so around 14/15, currently on Fluoxetine now, which, fingers crossed, works reasonably well the majority of the time.


  3. Maddison Jayne says:

    I absolutely adore you for writing this post Chlo, I am perscribed to Lexapro and it took me awhile to get use to the side effects etc. Love you chickadee x


  4. Kellee Bee says:

    Well done for writing the post. It takes a lot of confidence. I have myself suffered and still do from time to time. I used to take citalopram but it didn’t agree with me at all and was asked to go to councilling. The only thing that’s worked for me so far Hun is keeping a diary. It’s worked wonders for me. Hope you find something that works for you xxx


  5. My Thoughts says:

    This post is what i need! I was prescribed Seroplex, (antidepressant) but I didn’t take it as I was afraid of the side effects (knowing that i’ve never been on those types of medications before). What do you think.


    • chloeburford says:

      I’m not too sure on seroplex but it’s worth doing a bit of research because your side effects might be the same as mine on citalopram! But usually the side effects are worse for the first month so if you can get through that, it does get better 🙂 xx


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