Hello loves, I am finally back with a very belated post. I have been wanting to upload all week but when I go to write nothing really seems right, resulting in having my draft folder being full of half-written posts. So today’s post will be a little catch-up post, explaining what’s been going on and where I have been – go grab a coffee and let’s catch up.
If you follow me on my Instagram then you will know a few weeks back I travelled to Greece for a relaxing girls trip and there will be a follow me around post coming soon. Spoiler alert: it was a very eventful one and not as relaxing as we planned. During that week I ended up in hospital because of an awful allergic reaction and also found out my ex-boyfriend cheated on me. So as you can imagine my mental health was really really shit, and feeling that low abroad is terrifying. Obviously, the first half of my holiday was incredible, but on my fifth-day things went downhill. Cheating is a common thing you hear of, my mum cheated on my dad, I have had friends that cheated on their partners. It is unfortunately very common, and I always thought I understood how painful and damaging it can be until it actually happened to me. You automatically question yourself. What did I do wrong? Why wasn’t I enough? What has she got that I don’t? You compare every single thing with her and it has crushed the small amount of self-esteem I had and I hate him for that. He ruined my holiday and I feel embarrassed that I am on my blog yet again saying “Hi guys, I got fucked over again by a boy”. So I am apologetic and thankful for Chan being there with me through it.
This week has involved a lot of self-care and I have surrounded myself with my friends and family and I am so blessed to have such a good support system around me because I don’t think I would’ve been able to pick myself up without them holding my hand. I started my week off back at work and trust me, it was a bloody long week. So my first thanks I want to give is to my lovely colleague Carole. Thank you for listening to me, letting me cry and making me endless amounts of coffee. You are a babe.
On Wednesday I was reunited with Phoebe and I honestly love this girl to pieces. We met after work for cocktails and tapas and she greeted me with a little bag of goodies to cheer me up. Like what an actual cutie pie. I believe that you can have soul sisters as well as soul mates and Phoebe is defo my soul sister. So thank you honey, for being the best. My next thanks are to Michael, who I haven’t spoken about enough on my blog. He has been my best boy friend for a few years now and he has supported me through all of my good and bad decisions and this week he has really helped to pick me up from my lowest. My last thanks are to Michaela, who is the ultimate fierce bitch and I adore her and literally want to be more like her. She has given me endless amounts of pep talks this week and gave me my confidence back.
As I am writing this I am nursing a hangover. Last night me and Phoebe went out clubbing and it was so nice to spread my wings and have a fun time. I am always promised endless amounts of laughs when I am with Phoebe and this night is definitely what I needed.
I was debating not sharing this on my blog, to be honest. I am still so hurt by what he did to me, but I want to be the voice I wish I heard when I found out. I am trying to remind myself that it wasn’t my fault, I am enough, I will find love and when one door shuts another opens. Trust the magic in new beginnings.
I am sorry this post is a bit all over the place and rambly, but it felt wrong to upload my Greece follow me around before actually sitting down and catching up with you guys about where I have been and how I am. I hope you all have a lovely week and remind yourself that you are an independent, strong woman (or man). Love you lots.
Until next time,
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