Hello loves, I am finally back with a very belated post. I have been wanting to upload all week but when I go to write nothing really seems right, resulting in having my draft folder being full of half-written posts. So today’s post will be a little catch-up post, explaining what’s been going on and where I have been – go grab a coffee and let’s catch up.
If you follow me on my Instagram then you will know a few weeks back I travelled to Greece for a relaxing girls trip and there will be a follow me around post coming soon. Spoiler alert: it was a very eventful one and not as relaxing as we planned. During that week I ended up in hospital because of an awful allergic reaction and also found out my ex-boyfriend cheated on me. So as you can imagine my mental health was really really shit, and feeling that low abroad is terrifying. Obviously, the first half of my holiday was incredible, but on my fifth-day things went downhill. Cheating is a common thing you hear of, my mum cheated on my dad, I have had friends that cheated on their partners. It is unfortunately very common, and I always thought I understood how painful and damaging it can be until it actually happened to me. You automatically question yourself. What did I do wrong? Why wasn’t I enough? What has she got that I don’t? You compare every single thing with her and it has crushed the small amount of self-esteem I had and I hate him for that. He ruined my holiday and I feel embarrassed that I am on my blog yet again saying “Hi guys, I got fucked over again by a boy”. So I am apologetic and thankful for Chan being there with me through it.
This week has involved a lot of self-care and I have surrounded myself with my friends and family and I am so blessed to have such a good support system around me because I don’t think I would’ve been able to pick myself up without them holding my hand. I started my week off back at work and trust me, it was a bloody long week. So my first thanks I want to give is to my lovely colleague Carole. Thank you for listening to me, letting me cry and making me endless amounts of coffee. You are a babe.
On Wednesday I was reunited with Phoebe and I honestly love this girl to pieces. We met after work for cocktails and tapas and she greeted me with a little bag of goodies to cheer me up. Like what an actual cutie pie. I believe that you can have soul sisters as well as soul mates and Phoebe is defo my soul sister. So thank you honey, for being the best. My next thanks are to Michael, who I haven’t spoken about enough on my blog. He has been my best boy friend for a few years now and he has supported me through all of my good and bad decisions and this week he has really helped to pick me up from my lowest. My last thanks are to Michaela, who is the ultimate fierce bitch and I adore her and literally want to be more like her. She has given me endless amounts of pep talks this week and gave me my confidence back.
As I am writing this I am nursing a hangover. Last night me and Phoebe went out clubbing and it was so nice to spread my wings and have a fun time. I am always promised endless amounts of laughs when I am with Phoebe and this night is definitely what I needed.
I was debating not sharing this on my blog, to be honest. I am still so hurt by what he did to me, but I want to be the voice I wish I heard when I found out. I am trying to remind myself that it wasn’t my fault, I am enough, I will find love and when one door shuts another opens. Trust the magic in new beginnings.
I am sorry this post is a bit all over the place and rambly, but it felt wrong to upload my Greece follow me around before actually sitting down and catching up with you guys about where I have been and how I am. I hope you all have a lovely week and remind yourself that you are an independent, strong woman (or man). Love you lots.
Until next time,
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Chloe Burford 
Love you lots – you are such a badass and you’re gonna be fine, so many better things to come 🥰
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Love you tonnes! Thank you so much for all of your help honey x x
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One reason why I love this post is that it doesn’t feel like I’m reading a blog post, it feels like I’m having a conversation with you, and this is such a great post. I am so sorry you were cheated on and you’ve probably heard it 100 times, but you’re worth so much more than that guy and he’s going to regret cheating on you so, so much, just look forward to the future and remember it always gets better xo
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Thank you so much gorgeous, all of your words mean the world to me. I honestly look at you like a friend, rather than a supportive follower so thank you for being so lovely. I really hope karma bites him on the ass! xx
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Aaw that’s made my day, honestly, and I definitely consider you a friend too xo
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I just can’t understand why people cheat. It makes me so sad that that happened to you, my ex boyfriend also did the same and I also found out after we broke up. So that definitely messed me up and I was down for a long time. Just surround yourself with your friends/family (as I can see you have done) and just take it one day as a time. If you ever need someone to talk to I’m always here 💖 you are amazing and you are worth so much more! Also hope you feel better after the allergic reaction. Thanks for the update you are so strong and brave for sharing and talking about it, hope you are ok hun xxxxx
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Thank you so much for being so supportive and being there for me. It is so heartbreaking isnt it, its like you can’t help but blame and question yourself and thats what they don’t ever seem to understand!! Thank you so much once again, I really needed to hear this! xxx
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You are welcome! Always happy to help. Yeah it’s not nice to go through and it just ruins all your self-confidence really. It did affect my trust in people a lot, and I had to work on that for ages. Yeah exactly! You got this! Xxxx
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Never question yourself, YOU ARE ALWAYS ENOUGH! Other people make decisions in the moment that are selfish and because they don’t stop to think how something could affect another person – it doesn’t reflect on the person you are at all! Sending you so much love ❤
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Thank you so much gorgeous, I really needed to hear that so thank you. It is just so easy to blame yourself, I am trying so hard to get out of that mindset. Thank you for being so lovely and supportive xx
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I get what you mean, self doubt comes easily without thinking sometimes. Your blogging friends will always boost you and back you up xx
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I know you probably think, at least occasionally, something along the lines of “i’m weak because of what they did to me”. But despite those struggles with your mental health, you are strong and such an inspiration. I really hope people aspire to be like you, in some shape or form, rather than some celebritity who hides behind a facade x
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I so think that!! Thank you so much beautiful, it really does mean the world that you are so supportive. I would love people to aspire but I very much that will happen haha! Thank you so much lovely, you really are such a kind person xx
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Love this so much and love YOU. I know it’s so much easier said than done but you will be okay and remember that you are ALWAYS enough. Always always always. This was such a lovely thing to document and I love how you’ve turned it around into something beautiful. Sending so much love and light your way angel girl xxx
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Thank you so so so much angel, like really thank you. I love you!! It has been so difficult dealing with all this whilst trying to keep my mental health balanced, but I am getting there slowly. Having friends like you from my blog makes this all worthwhile, so thank you xxx
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I hate how common cheating is because of how incredible devastating it is. I think sometimes people can underestimate just how much it hurts the other person until it happens to you. It is shitty that someone could cheat on someone as lovely and beautiful as you but know that it was never your fault, he was the one that decided to cheat and chances are, if he was not with you, it would have happened to whoever he was with anyway. Sending lots of love. xx
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It really is so heartbreaking and something I will never be able to understand and accept. He says that he feels so guilty but I don’t think he understands how awful I feel. Thank you for leaving such a lovely comment, your support is appreciated. Lots of love back to you xx
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Chloe, you are ABSOLUTELY enough, girl!! You’re a strong, beautiful, sweet person and deserve the best!! 💓It’s so shitty that people cheat, but you know what, screw them! Sometimes it can be a blessing in disguise because there’s better things ahead. I remember I got cheated on by my first boyfriend in college around Christmastime and it ruined my holiday. So glad that relationship ended though because looking back, I wasn’t even myself in the actual relationship! And I wouldn’t have discovered myself or met the love of my life and best friend!
You deserve someone that will treat you with respect and love, always. Never forget that, dear! Sending you hugs from Chicago! xoxo
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Oh this is such a lovely comment that I feel slightly emotional!! I am so sorry to hear you were cheated on too, I don’t understand how people can be so cruel. I really hope theres something exciting around the corner for me and all of this pain is worth something. Thank you so much for reassuring me and supporting me. Lots of love!xxx
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I’m glad you have friends like her around to support you and hold you up high where you belong! You’re always enough (: love the photos as usual, a pleasure to read your posts
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Thank you so much girly, I am definitely so lucky to have her! That means so much coming from you! xx
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