Hello honeys, as you can tell from the title I am trying to work on myself and actually try to love myself. I feel like I have neglected my body a lot recently and its about time I treat myself!
So I am 21 and still living at home and as you can imagine I rarely do any cooking or cleaning and it wasn’t until I was trying to cook for date night when I realised I haven’t got a clue what to cook or even how to really cook. So for the past week, I have been acting like an actual adult and have been cooking meals and not relying on my lovely family to do so, as well as eating much more veggies. It’s so rewarding to learn how to make a dish and then enjoy it as well as trying new things.
In January one of my resolutions was to book more appointments, whether it’s for the dentist, doctors, hairdressers or nail salon and if I am being honest, I haven’t really achieved that. BUT last week I treated myself to a set of ombre acrylics and they are s.t.u.n.n.i.n.g, I don’t know why I don’t make it a monthly thing. I always pick my nails when I am nervous so 99% of the time my nail varnish is chipped and having fake nails resolves that issue and makes me look fierce, rather than having gross chipped stumpy fingers.
My next appointment booked in was getting my slugs fixed, aka. the worlds worst eyebrows. I have been so freaking insecure of my brows since I was 13 and I stupidly never fixed them, I have been plucking them myself and no matter how many youtube tutorials I watch I can still never fill them in correctly. So as I was scrolling through facebook an AD came up for a salon that specialises in lash and brow treatments, so I booked in a consultation. In the consultation, I had a patch test and we spoke about the various treatments on offer and what would work well and I ended up booking in an appointment to get Brow-Tox (brow lamination). Brow-Tox is a treatment that basically gels your eyebrows in the correct shape and then you get a wax, tweeze and tint. I am so so happy with how they look, the transformation is so good.
We all know my battle with driving and the anxiety that comes with it, I think I mentioned my struggle with learning to drive every single week last year and now it has been 8 months since I passed my test and I am so relieved that my anxiety has calmed down. But because I am so used to driving everywhere alone I am now too anxious to drive with passengers in case I embarrass myself, I know problematic hey? Anxiety always finds a way to kick my ass haha. So I have been trying to push myself out of my comfort zone and drive more places with passengers and prove to myself that I can do it and I can be confident.
Now, this is probably my biggest lifestyle change. I have given up alcohol and I never thought I would say that. I have the worst relationship with alcohol and I abuse it a lot. For about 2 years now I have drunk way too much and it’s ruining my body, I would typically drink 2 bevs every single day, even if I am hungover and I am fairly petite so the units I was consuming for my age, height, weight, was disgusting. It was double what it should be. I was spending so much money, drinking an extra 2000 calories a week, and my health was awful. Since having 2 weeks free from alcohol, my mental health has improved so much, I have never felt so calm. My skin has cleared up and I have so much more energy. It genuinely is the best decision I have ever made.
Its been a bit of a funny month, I have gone from hating myself, to really trying to love myself for the first time in an extremely long time. It has been so nice to actually look after myself and I feel so much more confident in my skin and I feel like I am actually starting to be good enough. So thank you for joining me in this super cringey post and I hope it encourages you to treat yourself! Whether it’s buying that lippy you have been eyeing up or eating more veggies. I love each and every one of you.
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Chloe Burford 
I couldn’t be more proud of you Chloe, these changes you have made, even the small ones, will impact you so much. Your nails look stunning, they’re so aesthetic and cute! your brows look amazing! The shape is so much fuller yet it still looks so natural! So glad to hear you’re battling your driving anxiety, you’re one of the strongest people I know, so if anyone can do it, it’s you! And congrats on giving up alcohol, although I don’t drink because it’s against my religion, I can tell that it’s definitely a great life decision to give it up and it seems to have already benefitted you too 🙂 hope your date night went well! have a great weekend x
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Omg this comment made me tear up, thank you so so much I honestly can’t express how grateful I am to have such lovely lovely followers. I consider you my friend! Date night did go well thank you, I’m finally cooking nice food haha! Thank you so much once again angel xxxxx
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Those nails are gorgeous! Personally I think there was nothing wrong with your brows before but we all like different looks and shapes etc. so there’s no harm treating yourself to some pampering 🙂 I pluck my own too btw! How did you get over your driving anxiety? I can’t even get to the stage where I can drive on the road let alone sit my practical driving test 😦
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Thank you so much beautiful lady. Your support means so incredibly much to me, you’re so freaking kind!!!! Plucking is so easy as finding the time and money to get them professional done all the time is hard! Honey I believe in you, you can do it. I learnt how to drive over the course of a year and half, changed my instructor three times until I found the perfect one and was so open with my driving anxiety. I had so many panic attacks but it’s all about proving you can do it. Having short five min breaks every 45 mins helped too, you can do it honey!! Maybe I’ll write a full post about how I done it :). Thank you so much once again sweetie xxxx
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Kindness is important, there’s not enough of it in the world! I’m low maintenance when it comes to certain beauty routines like my brows haha 😂 would love a post with your tips on how to overcome driving anxiety, I know I’ll get there – it’s not that I don’t want to drive I just find it super scary 😰
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It’s so important to love yourself and leading a healthy lifestyle is absolutely part of it. Alcohol is a depressant so that never helps and only makes things worse in the long run anxiety wise.
I get anxious over the most seemingly trivial things. People say ‘don’t be silly’ or ‘just don’t think about it’ like it’s a flucking choice hhahhhhah so I’m super proud your battling through it with the driving.
Your eyebrows look amazing but the did before treatment too. Those nails…Oh.My. Gosh. So pretty!
A. xxx
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Thank you so much for such a lovely comment beautiful. You are so kind and thoughtful!! I never realised how much alcohol was impacting my mood, I feel so much calmer now since not drinking. OMG I absolutely hate it when people say oh don’t worry or oh you have nothing to be sad about. It’s infuriating!!! Thank you so so much once again babe! Xx
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YOUR POSTS ARE ALWAYS SO AMAZING AND INTERESTING, I literally love all of the ideas you come up with !! Your nails look so pretty as well, I had a set like that for my cousin’s wedding once! They’re so elegant and classy. I’ve had acrylics on for maybe…4 years now ?? I literally cannot live without them and they’re my “thing” I guess, – some people treat themselves to getting their hair done, spray tans etc. – I treat myself to my nails! Your eyebrows look amazing as well !! It’s strange because when you pass your test people say that it’s scary to then drive on your own but I absolutely loved it and now I HATE having people in the car whilst I’m driving, I get so nervous that they’re judging me and make stupid mistakes because I’m not concentrating, I always have to drive by myself hahaha xxx
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Thank you so much honey, like really really thank you. You always comment the kindest and most thoughtful things ever, omg 4 years!! Thats so impressive, I have just got my nails infilled and I am obsessed, I think Im going to keep getting them redone. I feel like such a boss ass bitch with fake nails haha! Driving can be so scary but girl we got this, we can do it!! Thank you so much once again gorgeous girl xxxx
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Cooking is such a good form of self care. When I moved out I had to teach myself to cook but it’s so rewarding when you get it right and others request you to cook for them because they love it so much!!
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I never realised how fun cooking can be! I love it! Thank you so so much for reading and leaving such a kind comment beautiful! Xxx
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Oof, I’d love to see the meals you make for yourself! Your nails are so pretty!!! And I don’t think your brows look all that bad actually? The picture on the right is definitely more filled in and structured, very nice! I love that you are pushing youself out of your comfort zone, take it slow, drive in familiar places first! Omg congrats on kicking alcohol, what a difference it has made in 2 weeks is incredible! It is not cringey at all sweetie, and I think that’s the way it is, when people say life is up and down it can literally be the case in the span of a few days rather than a few years or decades! I guess that’s why you gotta be grateful for every single day! I hope you keep up these improvements! More appointments next time? HAHA! Lovely to read as usual Chloe! 🤗
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Thank you so much gorgeous, maybe I will do a blog post all about the meals I have been making. Thank you so much I am trying so hard to drive more with company but its so tough. Its mad how I am so scared of potentially being embarrassed. Thank you so so much, I was a bit worried about talking so openly about my problem with alcohol so it means so much to me that you are so understanding. Thank you so so much girly xxxx
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I’d love to see that! Its not mad at all Chloe! It is daunting and most of my friends are too scared too! Take it one step at a time! I really embrace people who are honest about themselves more than anything! And of course! 😁😊
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Hun your eyebrows look f***ing fab no matter what. I am glad you are feeling so much more confident and happier with yourself! I have been feeling the same, and it’s just such a good feeling. Also well done on your 2 weeks alcohol free! Sometimes it’s little changes in our lifestyle that can make us feel so much better 🙂 you are doing great, I am happy for you xxxx
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Thank you so so much gorgeous lady!!! You’re so so lovely. I’m so happy to hear you’re doing well too. It’s crazy how much alcohol can effect your mood, non alcoholic beer has been a saviour! Thank you so much once again gorgeous xxxxx
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I am so proud of you for taking the steps to become the person that you want to be. I know how hard it can be to book appointments and actually attend them so I am so incredibly proud for you for doing so and both your eyebrows and nails look incredible. Do you find that you still pick the nails or do you pick something else now when you are anxious?
I would highly recommend learning to cook. I would cook once a week for my family when I lived at home and it taught me how to grocery shop and how to cook and because you are cooking, you can control what goes into the dish. I learnt how to make my own sauces from scratch instead of using shop-made sauces which often have unwanted ingredients in them and also how to make simple healthy meals which was a god-send when I finally moved out. Look on BBC Good Foods for recipes to try as they always have really good healthy options. xx
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Aww honey this is such a sweet comment, thank you so incredibly much!! I still try to pick them by habit but they dont chip or snap and because you have paid a lot of money for them, you tend to stop biting them cause you dont want to throw money down the drain haha! Oh wow thats such a good shout, I might have a look on their website now for a recipe for tonights dinner! Thank you so so much once again gorgeous! zxxxx
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your nails are eyebrows look amazing!! driving can definitely be scary, so relatable. it’s awesome to hear you’re doing so well, such an inspiring post! 💛
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Aww thank you so much sweetie!! That means the world x x
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YES BABE! I’m so proud of you and happy to hear all the ways you’re working on yourself! Issa real hot girl summer lol and your nails look unreal!! defo the monthly treat you should work into your schedule cause omg what makes you feel more put together than classy, flashy, tippity-tappity long ass nails!! xxxx
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OMG thank you so so much, you are such a babe!!!! Honestly your comment and support has made my entire week!!! Hahaha tippity tappity nails, love it! Fancy nails makes me feel x1000 times better xxxx
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Ah sweetheart, the alcohol bit. You’re amazing for recognising that problem and dealing with it head on, I wish you the best of luck with that! Congrats on two weeks of being the best YOU. Your nails and brows look amazing, I love them 😍 sounds like a very productive self-care month, and hey we all need to step back and nurture ourselves (inside AND out) from time to time! Xxx
– Gillian x
http://www.gillianfinn.com
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Thank you so much beauty, not going to lie I was a bit worried about talking so openly about my alcohol problem because I know how much judgement I am opening myself up to. But thank you for being so kind and supportive sweetie. YI hope you are taking care of yourself too honey, thank you so much once again xxxx
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Okay this post is the farthest thing from cringey- I am SO dang proud of you & so happy to hear how great of a place you are in. It’s inspiring how these changes have made the biggest difference! I love your ombre nails by the way— and I have always thought you have the best brows so I was shocked to hear you are insecure about them. You are just sooo stunning! sending you so much love.Thank you for always being honest and vulnerable… you’re incredible, love ❤
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Omg this comment has made my entire week!! Thank you so so freaking much, you are always so loving and supportive – I really appreciate it. Sometimes I worry I am too open on my blog and should post more stereotypical lifestyle content but comments like this makes it all worthwhile so thank you so much xxxx
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Awww I’m so glad this comment encouraged you. I love your real, genuine, honest and warm presence here. People enjoy the more “stereotypical” stuff , sure- but people resonate with the real!! Xoxo
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