Hello honeys, as you can tell from the title I am trying to work on myself and actually try to love myself. I feel like I have neglected my body a lot recently and its about time I treat myself!
So I am 21 and still living at home and as you can imagine I rarely do any cooking or cleaning and it wasn’t until I was trying to cook for date night when I realised I haven’t got a clue what to cook or even how to really cook. So for the past week, I have been acting like an actual adult and have been cooking meals and not relying on my lovely family to do so, as well as eating much more veggies. It’s so rewarding to learn how to make a dish and then enjoy it as well as trying new things.
In January one of my resolutions was to book more appointments, whether it’s for the dentist, doctors, hairdressers or nail salon and if I am being honest, I haven’t really achieved that. BUT last week I treated myself to a set of ombre acrylics and they are s.t.u.n.n.i.n.g, I don’t know why I don’t make it a monthly thing. I always pick my nails when I am nervous so 99% of the time my nail varnish is chipped and having fake nails resolves that issue and makes me look fierce, rather than having gross chipped stumpy fingers.
My next appointment booked in was getting my slugs fixed, aka. the worlds worst eyebrows. I have been so freaking insecure of my brows since I was 13 and I stupidly never fixed them, I have been plucking them myself and no matter how many youtube tutorials I watch I can still never fill them in correctly. So as I was scrolling through facebook an AD came up for a salon that specialises in lash and brow treatments, so I booked in a consultation. In the consultation, I had a patch test and we spoke about the various treatments on offer and what would work well and I ended up booking in an appointment to get Brow-Tox (brow lamination). Brow-Tox is a treatment that basically gels your eyebrows in the correct shape and then you get a wax, tweeze and tint. I am so so happy with how they look, the transformation is so good.
We all know my battle with driving and the anxiety that comes with it, I think I mentioned my struggle with learning to drive every single week last year and now it has been 8 months since I passed my test and I am so relieved that my anxiety has calmed down. But because I am so used to driving everywhere alone I am now too anxious to drive with passengers in case I embarrass myself, I know problematic hey? Anxiety always finds a way to kick my ass haha. So I have been trying to push myself out of my comfort zone and drive more places with passengers and prove to myself that I can do it and I can be confident.
Now, this is probably my biggest lifestyle change. I have given up alcohol and I never thought I would say that. I have the worst relationship with alcohol and I abuse it a lot. For about 2 years now I have drunk way too much and it’s ruining my body, I would typically drink 2 bevs every single day, even if I am hungover and I am fairly petite so the units I was consuming for my age, height, weight, was disgusting. It was double what it should be. I was spending so much money, drinking an extra 2000 calories a week, and my health was awful. Since having 2 weeks free from alcohol, my mental health has improved so much, I have never felt so calm. My skin has cleared up and I have so much more energy. It genuinely is the best decision I have ever made.
Its been a bit of a funny month, I have gone from hating myself, to really trying to love myself for the first time in an extremely long time. It has been so nice to actually look after myself and I feel so much more confident in my skin and I feel like I am actually starting to be good enough. So thank you for joining me in this super cringey post and I hope it encourages you to treat yourself! Whether it’s buying that lippy you have been eyeing up or eating more veggies. I love each and every one of you.
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