How is it May already? When we celebrated the New Year and the start of a new decade, I had such high hopes of it being a successful year and the fresh start we all needed. But wow how wrong I was! I feel like it has been a while since I uploaded a chatty post and shared how I am doing mentally, so sit down, grab a cuppa and let’s have a chat.
We are now into our sixth week of lockdown and although I am grateful to be in the safety of my home, I am starting to get a severe case of cabin fever. I miss small things like driving to work, going on long walks around town and having coffee dates. But the biggest thing I have struggled with is not being with family, this has been the longest time I have ever spent away from them and honestly can’t wait to be back in Bristol with them.
I am lucky to still be working from home, so during the week, I am still busying my mind (is ‘busying’ even a word?). But once the evening arrives, the comfort eating starts. I wish I can turn around and post about how productive and healthy I have during this time, but that would be so far from the truth. This lockdown I have eaten my feelings, drank way too much wine and avoided working out. With all of this junk food and barely achieving 3k steps a day, I have gained weight.
It has taken me a while to accept that it is okay to be a little bigger and that it is not worth feeling guilty and beating myself up over. On Instagram, I have seen so many girls upload selfies of their perfect up-do, a full face of makeup and lounging around in gym gear and I can’t help but compare myself to them. I have basically lived in the same pair of joggers, baggy tops and my hair hasn’t seen a pair of straighteners in weeks. So I have purged my Instagram of all accounts that make me feel shit about myself and I am trying so hard to take care of myself.
If you are in the same boat as me and feel rubbish about yourself, then please know that this is only temporary and you are beautiful just as you are. It doesn’t matter if your jeans are a little tighter or stay in your comfies all day long. Worrying about a few pounds that you have gained during the pandemic only adds to the stress you are experiencing.
Once lockdown is lifted, I cannot wait to book in a day at the salon to get my haircut, new set of acrylics and get my mojo back. Thank you for reading this rambly post and I hope you are all staying safe and taking care of yourself.
Until next time,
Chloe Burford 
Girl you are perfect just the way you are and you are such a Queen for uploading this, I know so many people are going to benefit from this beautiful post, what a wonderful reminder!
Thank you for sharing this post beauty ❤ We are all on our own journeys and the important thing to remember is that there is never the need to compare no matter what others may say / what we have grown up and been programmed to believe! We change those beliefs today. We are good enough as we are. We are perfect as we are. We don't need to lose weight or put on weight or be a vegan or not be a vegan or whatever just because the world says so. We should only live how we want to live, for ourselves, and of course doing everything with good intentions, but I mean, if you just want to chill at home, that's more than good enough. Whatever you do is enough. We are perfect as we are and that's all there is too it, we don't have to do anything to prove anything to anyone. We are perfect as we are.
Keep positive girlie!! Enjoy your wine, treat yourself to a box of Milk Tray (only if you share them with me please) and just do whatever you want to do to feel good.
Hopefully we will all be out of this soon, I'm definitely starting to experience cabin fever now, roll on post lockdown!
Lots of love ❤
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Ahhh how on earth have I just see this comment (what a bad blogger, sorry!!). Thank you so so much for your kind words I appreciate it soooo much. Comments like this make me so happy that I am honest and vulnerable on my blog, I often worry if I am a bit too honest but if this helps at least one person then my job is a success!
Exactly! I think society has drilled it into our heads to look or act a certain way to fit into stereotypes of the beautiful and successful person, but really that’s so damaging. There is so much negativity in the world, especially this year, that we really don’t need to add to that by putting each other down.
Thank you so much once again, you truly are such a fabulous friend and I feel so lucky and blessed to have your support. Sending you buckets and buckets of love! xxxx
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This lock-down has affected people in different ways and it is okay to be struggling a bit during this time. I used to pride myself on how productive I was at the weekends but now all I can seem to bring myself to do is watch Netflix all day AND THAT IS OKAY. I have actually found that I am not getting as hungry as I used to be which I guess is okay because I am being less active than I was before but also all the food I am eating is unhealthy snack food which is not going to benefit me in the long run (and is probably adding to how shitty I feel sometimes). This lock-down is a new experience for everyone and we are all going to be changed by the end of this. xx
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Thank you for commenting and being so understanding. This has been such a tough time and almost impossible to stay positive 24/7, especially online. I am such a huge snacker too! It is so important to remember this is only temporary and we will all come out of this stronger. Thank you once again xxxx
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You are not the only one who has been lounging around in comfy clothes, hasn’t straightened their hair in weeks and eating snacks – please don’t feel guilty! As strange as it sounds I’ve enjoyed lockdown life and I’m scared to return to my workplace and mix with the public again. I actually think I’ve lost weight in lockdown, I’ve been exercising more than I have in a while and I manage to keep myself pretty busy that I’m not thinking about snacking. Size is not important xx
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Thank you so much beautiful, you leave such kind and thoughtful comments. I love the blogging community, it has helped me feel less alone during this scary time. Wow well done for being so motivated and using this time for good! xxx
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You’re welcome, thank you for creating posts I can engage with ☺️ x
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I’ve definitely been missing the little things too, especially driving to work and playing my favourite playlists and getting to sing along. It was one of my favourite parts of the day. I doubt I’ll even remember how to drive once we get out of this lockdown hahaha. I’ve literally been in pyjamas all day every day with my hair shoved up and no makeup on, my dressing gown has become an actual part of my body now I think, I haven’t taken it off. Please don’t beat yourself up, you’re beautiful and your worth is NOT IN YOUR WEIGHT. Please remember that. You don’t have to be productive every day and believe me you’re not the only one feeling like this, so please don’t feel guilty !! Sending you lots of love angel xxx
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I have driving anxiety already because I think shit what if I get in the car and haven’t got a clue what I am doing hahaha!!! I think I have worn jeans like once during this whole lockdown, I am going to miss the comfort of my pjs when this is over! Thank you so much for making me feel less alone and being such a sweetie, it means the world to me. Thank you for brightening my day!!! Lots of love xxxx
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GIRL you are a damn stunner! And it’s ok during this time to eat more or not do anything because we are in lockdown and sometimes it just helps and makes us feel better! You do you girl! No matter what you will still be stunning 💗 Also I don’t think there has been a day where I haven’t eaten chocolate or biscuits during this time, I too have eaten more 🥰 sending you love and if you ever need to talk or rant I am always here xxxx
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Thank you so so much angel, you are always SO kind!! I think quite a lot of us aren’t being as productive as we wish or we are turning to alcohol or junk food for comfort. It is so nice to know I am not the only one feeling this way so thank you for being so kind and sweet. Sending you so much love, I am always here for you too honey!! xxxx
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That’s a good move removing all those “perfect quarantine” pictures from your feed! And same here man, i just rotate between my 2 pajamas. Putting on weight can be demoralizing but this is an extenuating circumstance! Remember you are always in control and just enjoy yourself! 😄
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Thank you so so much gorgeous, I appreciate this so much!! It is so lovely to know I am not the only one who feels like this. I automatically feel guilty and beat myself up for gaining weight, but in the grand scheme of things it is such a minor issue!! Thank you so much once again and I hope you are well and staying safe xxx
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I love how real you are, Chloe! (and gorgeous as is, but that goes without saying!) I have unashamedly been living in comfy joggers and my boyf’s boxers and it’s absolutely okay – and as for gaining weight….well, to be frank, of course it happens. It’s just natural; all of our daily exercise has been taken away and it’s a stressful time where we have way too much access to the fridge lol! I’m sure you’ve not gained that much – but even so,
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you are absolutely right – it’s completely okay to gain weight xx
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Ahh sweetie thank you so so much, this truly does mean the world to me and your kind words are SO appreciated!! It is so reassuring to hear that I am not the only one who isn’t full glam this quarantine. Thank you so much once again and I hope you are well and staying safe xxx
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OMG I love you 🙈🙈💕💕
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Love you too!! Thank you so much for reading honey xx
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