How is it May already? When we celebrated the New Year and the start of a new decade, I had such high hopes of it being a successful year and the fresh start we all needed. But wow how wrong I was! I feel like it has been a while since I uploaded a chatty post and shared how I am doing mentally, so sit down, grab a cuppa and let’s have a chat.
We are now into our sixth week of lockdown and although I am grateful to be in the safety of my home, I am starting to get a severe case of cabin fever. I miss small things like driving to work, going on long walks around town and having coffee dates. But the biggest thing I have struggled with is not being with family, this has been the longest time I have ever spent away from them and honestly can’t wait to be back in Bristol with them.
I am lucky to still be working from home, so during the week, I am still busying my mind
(is ‘busying’ even a word?). But once the evening arrives, the comfort eating starts. I wish I can turn around and post about how productive and healthy I have during this time, but that would be so far from the truth. This lockdown I have eaten my feelings, drank way too much wine and avoided working out. With all of this junk food and barely achieving 3k steps a day, I have gained weight.
It has taken me a while to accept that it is okay to be a little bigger and that it is not worth feeling guilty and beating myself up over. On Instagram, I have seen so many girls upload selfies of their perfect up-do, a full face of makeup and lounging around in gym gear and I can’t help but compare myself to them. I have basically lived in the same pair of joggers, baggy tops and my hair hasn’t seen a pair of straighteners in weeks. So I have purged my Instagram of all accounts that make me feel shit about myself and I am trying so hard to take care of myself.
If you are in the same boat as me and feel rubbish about yourself, then please know that this is only temporary and you are beautiful just as you are. It doesn’t matter if your jeans are a little tighter or stay in your comfies all day long. Worrying about a few pounds that you have gained during the pandemic only adds to the stress you are experiencing.
Once lockdown is lifted, I cannot wait to book in a day at the salon to get my haircut, new set of acrylics and get my mojo back. Thank you for reading this rambly post and I hope you are all staying safe and taking care of yourself.
Until next time,